Yeah after a long long time I just wanna write all that's on my mind! It's hard to survive when you have a lot to talk but nobody to hear or understand…
Words have lost meaning as it floats aimlessly in the gloomy air
Thoughts are overwhelming that I feel lost at its glare
All that I wish to say nobody hears or knows
Why I need somebody to simply understand the flaws
It's tiring to live looking for a ray of sunshine
When you have just tried crossing the line
I had a passion so deep that it kept me burning
In my own stupid ways I did try my best reviving
But I guess am just a lost case in the world of reality
Cause I only belong to the world of insanity
If only just a single ray of sunshine had survived
If only I found a strand of hair that could have revived
I wouldn't be so lost in the wild with noone to care
I might have had the courage and strength for a dare
But as always am a stupid weird silly coward
With no wish or will to live or be happy as a reward
I wish I survive the long trail of storms that's screaming
Let me find a way so that I will be able to breathe smiling
Getting a strength to move on seems impossible
Cause a life with no friends too is plausible
It's daunting and scary thinking how I am surviving
It's a constant fear wondering how long I can go on living
A dead soul in flesh yet gets hurt for each thorn that pricks
What am I actually that I feel am the one playing tricks
Am I even a human at this point that am allowed to exist?
Or an alien creature cursed to loneliness for zest?
I hope I know the reason why am still alive with nothing of interest that keeps me going or a hope that may push me to try. My fear has swallowed all that I have been and all that I am. I have nobody to rely on nor anyone who understands my trials or struggles.
It is hard to push through when the doors are shut with such force that you are ready to run far with an overreacting heart in the palm of your hand….but the exit seems non existent…as the one exit you see .. you are scared to go even near it…
